I used to believe that becoming a mother was something I just wasn’t going to experience in this lifetime. In fact for many years I’d been almost entirely closed to the idea. I was quite happy teaching the Art of Living Courses and felt that I could make a difference to more people and be more useful on this planet sharing these incredible breathing techniques rather than raising a kid. Afterall the sudarsan kriya had had such a hugely positive impact on my life and I got such a kick out of seeing it impact other people too. Of course I never imagined for a moment that raising a kid could be useful to the planet or that I didn’t have to choose one over the other but could do both!
And then one day, while on a tea break at a writing workshop I was running, one of the participants told me about this guy who plays the harp to people as they’re dying. Not always actually as they’re dying, but sometimes. I was really taken by the idea and immediately thought of pitching an article on how to support people in dying gracefully. And so I did. To Wellbeing magazine. And they accepted. I had so much fun doing the research for this article. I got to speak to some really interesting people, including Zenith Virago and also the guy with the harp, Peter Roberts. I literally got off the phone after interviewing them and was bouncing around the room with excitement. I know it sounds crazy but something else was going on for me – I just knew that I was going to be doing something similar. And I was. I was so inspired that within a couple of months I flew to Byron Bay and did a course on Death and Dying with Zenith and now I’m a Funeral Celebrant. Death is so seldom talked about, I mean really talked about, and it was so freeing to be with Zenith, who’s so comfortable around the topic, and to be learning from her! I just love her approach to death and to funerals … to having them be a really special and sacred celebration of life rather than a mourning. Thanks Zenith.
Anyway, after writing the article on ‘Dying Gracefully’ I thought it would be good to write an article on birth. To create a bit of balance. So I pitched the idea to Wellbeing Magazine. Again they liked it and I started researching. And yes, again I got to interview some very interesting people. One of them was a mum. She completely knocked a concept I’d been living with for many years right out the window. She had me begin to see the possibility of being able to live an uplifting, inspiring and spiritually nurturing life and be a parent. And for the first time since I was a young child, I began considering the possiblity of becoming a mum. Simon (hubby) and I discussed the idea over nothing more than a few weeks and then decided to give it a go (you know what I mean). We also agreed that if I didn’t become pregnant quickly and easily we’d not do the whole IVF thing. Well, it happen straight away. At 3am on Simon’s birthday, I peed on a stick and the line came up! I was pregnant. I wasn’t that surprised, but I was a bit surprised, with us both being 38 years old and all! So, that’s how it all began. In my next entry I’ll tell you about why I decided to have a homebirth.