If you think I’m just leading a life of leisure, hanging out with my very cute little baby boy, making cooing sounds, you’re WRONG! I’m sure I’m working harder now than I’ve ever done before, in my new role as mamma. Cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, feeding him, feeding me, washing up, cooking again, folding laundry, bathing him, dressing him, undressing him, etc. (On this note, if I’ve not returned your call, SMS or email, please don’t hold it against me or take it personally).
And now, for the past few days, I’ve been doing laundry. Oh soooo much laundry! You know you’ve done a lot of laundry when the crazy thought to put a laundromat sign outside your apartment passes not-so-surreptitiously through your head. Please, don’t get the wrong impression, I’m not complaining. In fact I’ve not minded it at all really. I genuinely love it when everything smells fresh and clean.
What I have minded very muchly though, is this rash that Joshi’s developed. I felt so anxious when it first appeared, all red and raw. Turns out it’s thrush. Oh no! Not thrush on my baby! Immediately I thought, “how can that be happening! I EC my baby. He hardly ever sits in his own wees (and definitely not in his poos – we catch all of those), but there’s been a phase recently where ECing hasn’t gone as well. It seems to have passed now, but during it I was missing a whole lot of wees and Joshi suddenly started being not so into sitting on the potty. Instead of happily doing his business, he’d straighten his whole body until I took him off. The more I looking at that red, raw area the more I started feeling as though it was my fault, that I could have prevented him from getting thrush.
Anyway, moving on from self-blame as swiftly as possible, I was (relatively speaking) pleasantly surprised to learn that thrush in babies can come on when they start solids. Phew, a good solid reason to help me abolish all guilt (‘scuse the pun)! Apparently it’s got something to do with their stool and urine acidity changing. Adding more weight to this, the homeopath reckons Joshi’s thrush is connected to what’s going on in his digestive system. So she suggested we change the foods we’re offering him, avoiding things like bananas, citric fruits and foods which are hard for him to digest and going more for foods like sweet potato, pumpkin, avocado and grains. And that we both take probiotics.
To help his skin heal, on my homeopath’s recommendation I’ve been rubbing this lovely rosatum cream on him. And I kid you not – his bottom literally smells of roses right now. (Makes a change from the sweet caramel-like smell of my breastfed baby’s poos). She also suggested he takes rosemary water baths. It’s been quite pleasant actually. And he didn’t smell too roast-potatoey afterwards. (You just simmer a handful of fresh rosemary in water for five minutes and then add it to your bath water – great for healing the skin).
But on top of that we’ve had to wash everything. You see thrush looooooooves damp conditions and isn’t friends with sunlight, so washing and sun drying all his cloth nappies, sheets, towels, blankets, etc … and ours, is a great way to kill thrush. And while I’ve been hanging up laundry in the garden Joshi’s been having heaps of nappy-free time, crawling around my ankles, getting lots of sunlight on his botty and other bits.
While it’s not been so easy, I think it’s all paying off. His skin seems to be clearing up. Of course, while he’s had thrush we’ve had to miss our swimming lessons so as not to aggravate his skin and not to spread it to the other kids. Our homeopath was surprised that I’m taking him into chlorinated water at such a young age. She says it compromises his immune system. Even just 30 minutes of it a week. Oh dear, now I just need to get over feeling bad about taking him for swimming lessons. Honestly, you can find more than a million reasons to feel guilty when you’re a mamma. As with everything in life, there are always going to be some good decisions, bad decisions and some in between decisions that you make. I guess you just have to keep doing your best and be compassionate towards yourself. In the meantime I’m off to long kriya tonight to chuck out any remnant guilt. Soooooooo hum.